Starting afresh......again....lol

hahaha! thought bringing a sense of humor into the mix definitely helps....my sleep schedule is officially off, waking up at 330am, and wanting to head back to bed at 5pm just isnt right....lol, but ive taken a different approach now, i think my attitude has changed a bit, to where if i have a goal in mind as far as a 5k or 10k, i think i am more apt to strive to get to that point, rather than not...so im planning on running a 10k at the end of february with a couple of girls, so ive pretty much gotten comfortable with a 5k (3 miles) but its that last half that im afraid of...the crazy thing is i could not feel more heavy and just SWOLLEN right now, what the hek?! granted the week before natures wrath comes is definitely my worst (as far as swelling to a huge balloon of water) crazy, but still, it just doesn't add anything to one's self esteem, you know?

but other than that i feel as though i have gotten back on track since thanksgiving, cause really there's no point in trying to start on thanksgiving, so i started the week i got back from that, and i did make better choices throughout the weekend, splitting lots of meals, and so i think that helps, but im definitely not waiting for the new year to really crack down.....my sister is actually going through the same thing now with weight and maybe a little bit of self esteem has been lessened, she lost some weight the beginning of last year but has gained a lot of it back, not all of it, but she doesn't like to shop now, which was never the case before! so we've decided to crack down these 4 weeks (3 now) before thanksgiving, and see where that leaves us, maybe relax just for the christmas meal, and im sure we'll keep walking while we are together in oklahoma, but i think doing it together has helped us both in confidence and support. I definitely know exactly what she's going through, and it is hard, but i think together we have more support and a fighting chance! anyways, ive started lifting weights, which growing up i KNEW thats what i needed to do, muscle mass is the best thing for faster metabolism, so thats my focus now, is lots of rep, not a lot of weight, and running/elliptical...

But i definitely understand about your excuse of working, cause on my days i work, its like all i can do just to get out of bed and up to the bathroom...lol, just exhausted from head to toe....but i think its better to have a plan of action for the week and what days you feel you might have a bit more energy, like maybe having a restful weekend, mondays are better for you (its definitely better for me) so tuesdays are a bit harder for me but doable, but wednesdays and thursdays are definitely a no-go, my body has definitely reached its limit by then, so i think 4-5 days a week are ideal for me, and what im shooting for at this point, and with lifting weights and getting back to my ab workouts, i think i will be a lot better off than just cardio, as far as fitting better into clothes, and feeling better about myself, so ive definitely been drinking more and more water ever since ive started lifting weights, which has been a huge blessing, and is optimal in metabolism, hydration, and an ABSOLUTE CURE when you think you're hungry but its just thirst! well, thats all for now, i love you girl! im loving this constant accountability and testimonials we have shared, it really does encourage and strengthen my hope for looking and feeling better, while keeping everything honest! talk soon :)

A Season of New beginnings... :)

Well im sorry for the long absence! I was able to go out of town to chicago which was soo much fun to get to see Peyton and Parker, awww oh how i miss them....i just wish they could live closer, but its always fun getting to go see them! But Ive recently decided to go to Grad school, OH WOW, i seriously never thought i would say that! hahaha, but this last weekend, I was talking with shari (my nursing friend) and we were kind of just talking about slowly leaning that way, and how it would just be awesome to eventually Nurse practitioners, and I think GOd really laid a seed in my heart that night. It was weird cause i knew God was on the verge of doing something in my life, and i really didnt realize it til after i had really thought about going back to school and becoming a nurse practitioner, it just made sense! Im so excited, i know GOd is doing and going to do great things! I dont know if i told you about a guy from work that was just really hounding me (he's a tech) about going back to school, and would always ask me if i REALLY wanted to stay a bedside nurse my entire life.....which at the time, i HAD NO CLUE, you know, im just doing this til that feeling changes you know? but when i was talking to shari, maybe God was just trying to slowly enter this idea into my mind and then when talking to shari, it just confirmed it! wow, i still cant believe it.....there's SO much to do to even be ready for grad school! oh geez...lol but i have a few friends that are getting their masters now so i think i'll ask them too about the GRE and everything...

but as far as food in general, halloween was a little hard, but it was SO much fun to go trick or treating with peyton! i'll put pics up on facebook this week sometime, but yeah, but halloween night which was parkers bday party, so i was able to enjoy some cake and bit of candy, but i think thats normal, i dont think i should deprive myself of that, if i like it, but its all about CONTROL.....lol, which i have to admit sometimes is hard obviously, but i feel like now i have more control and a better idea of what makes me feel good OVERALL not just at the moment....but im looking forward to losing weight through all this, im LOVING all the salads that ive been eating so much texture and flavor! who would have thought?! but im having fun keeping things new and trying new and different things! but im defintely going to have to start saving for grad school! which it wouldnt be a problem paying for it as i go, but i would like some cushion....lol so i CAN have a life for the next 3 years.....lol, so we'll see! anyways, i guess thats all for now! talk soon :)

The beginning of (what hopes to be) a BEAUtiful friendship....lol

well hello fellow desirers of weightloss! lol, im so glad you created this blog for us, i think it will really help keep us accountable in our journey, the ups and downs, and help make the most of what tends to be the hardest thing anyone can do...and really succeed doing....

I think ive consistently tried to lose weight over this past year, and consistently failed miserably....fortunately i haven't gained weight from where i started, but i do the up-and-down lose weight, and then just gain it right back a month later, so its like i never tried.....so frustrating....but ive recommitted to sticking with this, more than just for a week at a time, which for the most part, has been my first mistake, and now i think God has given me a totally new and greater perspective of how i eat, what i want to put into my body, and what helps me feel good about myself, you know? I hate eating junk food, or just "bad" food (whether it be fast food, or just fried food, and then hating myself for eating it, as soon as the meal is over....i hate the way i feel mostly, you know? so i think the lower carb way of eating is suiting me best, just cause i tried it for 2 weeks straight, just really concentrating on low carb, and it was so hard, but i think i felt much better as far as my GI goes, my attitude, and just being able to really concentrate on what goes in my body, instead of just eating whatever....does that make sense? Im definitely not doing no carb, but i think ive found a totally new creativity for lower carb eating, i LOVE all the protein and the salads (which i haven't been eating in like probably 6 months....sad, i KNOW), i think ive definitely found a new me in all this....

As far as running goes, ive been meaning to tell you!! Would you want to train for a 10k in february with me?? its the Cowtown through Fort Worth, i think its like Feb 27th or so, but that is what i am training for now, starting with 2-3 miles, which i think is best right now, goodness, before this last week, i think it was like, what seemed like 2 months that i had run last....yikes! so im getting back into it, and i think its so easy to forget or ignore the way you feel after running, when you want to be lazy or just dont feel like it. But there's no describing that feeling....refreshed, renewed, revitalized, AMAZING....so i will gladly keep that in the forefront of my mind as i strive to increase my mileage and lose weight!

Anyways, i'll try and update at least twice a week, maybe more if i can! I cant wait to see the changes we are going to make through this accountability! talk soon :)